Wellness, Anxiety, Psychosis
(and a little bit of travel)
"remember spring swaps snow for leaves"
I had a filling on a molar on Thursday the 24th.
The pain before that would fluctuate between a one out of ten and a seven out of ten. At times it was pretty awful, but I would honestly rather have that than anxiety that won't go away. I think this is a great way of describing how you might feel about your anxieties to a person with no experience of panic or anxiety.
Since my filling last week I am still in pain, fluctuating between a zero and a five, so it's still quite bad. I am now able to identify the guilty tooth, before the filling it felt like my whole left side might need extensive work, and I couldn't explain it. At least it's only one tooth now, a pre-molar, and I'm seeing a different dentist tomorrow.
I have been working out a lot recently which for me releases lots of good, pain killing chemicals in my brain, which stay with me for most of the day, which has helped with the toothache very much.
One thing that also helps to make me feel better is the reflection that 'at least my mental health is very good'.
It feels nice to think that my current problem, toothache, is completely normal. Most of my problems of recent years were due to mental health issues. It's like being back in the real world, and having such normal things happening makes me feel in step with the world. After so long in a deluded and psychotic world, with anxiety on top of that, feeling normal is nice and it's nice to be back! I know now that if I want to keep it that way, I need to make efforts to keep well.
For me, being about 90% recovered, it's just small steps a couple of times a day, like looking at clouds for twenty minutes (as well as continuing to take my meds), or anything really, it's almost like what you do doesn't matter, as long as you remember to tell your brain to do it (and keep taking your meds).
Don't forget to keep keeping well!